Rampant Polemic


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August 27, 2010, 4:18 am
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verne visualizes a moving metric progress bar of A1, A2, A3, C, S1,S3 and when the bar moves up he knows and when the indicator progress bar moves forward he understands and if it drops he sees that too.  He’s alwyas aware of progress. Verne does nothing for passion.  it’s all progress and he always can measure his current progress.

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also thought about saying to tdk could you please stop measuring the med and job and career stuff? Youv’e said that a lot repetively and it’s slightly annoying but more importantly, whatever encouragement you’ve attempted to give hasn’t been very effective has it.  So I’d appreciate if you’d just not do that. thanks.

a really annoying biop prob is they always say this idiotically unhelpful advice over and over again like “take meds and then you’ll get a job and it will happen! blah blah blah.” its annoying and incredibly ineffective. that advice hasn’t really been working eh.

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August 27, 2010, 4:07 am
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anothing thing I realized is I think I feel like a LOT of the expenses I made in past few years like “weren’t fully me” like some phil crazy person doing tons of roadtrips and spending SMALL mini purchases like coffee and snacks and small purchases adn flights to places.  But what I like doing is spending VERY littel and then HUGE purchase (like awesome cutting edge rad computer yes TRUE!!! ) or even BETTER spending very little and savhing HUGE amounts.  that makes me feel most clear focused and connected for sure. it’s because I felt panicked in usa. usa fucks with me.  I feel safe around aussies. TRUE!!! That’s TRUE!.  so I was like i trust amellite,he’s and aussie. I gotta share this lol so just sharing it, you don’t even have to do anything was important for sure. thanks again heap mate. kind of like milton erickson but way clearer cleaner haha my mom DOES have ocd with checking doors adn everything wow. dang it’s really annoying after awhile. i think after awhile it becomes easier to say and speak one’s mind than to keep it to self. but that’s the thing!! THIS IS IT!! I feel like in Philleas-mode, philleas will acheive things only if he speaks his mind.  but Verne doesn’t have that fear and can just achieve what he needs just by focusing on goals and not giving a fuck about other people. I have more control with verne.  In BGS if phil sees 1 horde and it’s 1v1, I get scared with phil.  If I’m on verne, verne thinks “prey” haha or at the very least, some encounter he can easily avoid or control or win the 1v1 encounter. there’s no fear with veren.  I have more contorl with verne.  I’m happier with verne! haha. LOL. I’m breaking up with phil and connecting with verne side of me haha!! no, still will keep phil side prob idk idk I’m sorting this out have bottled up so much stuff. i think it’s some people worki things out OUTSIDE by talking outloud (and I do that or the philleas part of me does) sometimes chicks might be attracted ot that or annoyed by it LOL idk but those pople are always honest because they say everything. honesty/dishonesty doesn’t even factor into teh equation haha! awesome! I CONSTANTLY have this fear of people stealing my “moneY ‘like my intellectual money or clairty money on philleas. TRUE. REALLY funny one MAke a ton of gold and tell NO ONE, or tell people and then have to be a jerk who doesn’t give anyaway. that’s ONLY two ways to accumulate gold. Remember that discussing we had haha!!  I think you told people and they may have asked you?  festo, deathina, guilds…I earn gold like 5 times slower than you. you earn it SOOOO fAST!! but I’ve just kept amount quiet it’s you prob have more in your guild bank lol but good times hehe i think it’s simple.  I’m not a hunter. LOL.  I started hunter guild have tons of awesome player friens that are hutners, but I’m not a hunter. too spread out. also, i relaized I’ve helped out SOOOOOOO money fucking frickin people bet it leveling, gold tips, starting guild tips (pureambe) etc etc. and so much and in RL with career.s  it’ll be fricking ABOUT TIME some people helped me out with career, goldearning, gear, good tims, fun, relaxing, peace, SUCCESSFUL career, good tiems SWEET! On Sat, Nov 21, 2009 at 1:10 PM, blankjo Thomas Kooz <validatelife@gmail.com> wrote: amellite-mate, I’ll try to keep this one short(er) LOL.  Did you know that I tried to major in communications in college?  I think for the longest time I WAS trying to speak/type everythign on my mind.  So when you said “you say everything on your mind” that was a HUGE HUGE compliment!! Wow!!  Seriously!! Also, I want to modify that.  I DON”T SPEAK everything on my mind, but usually eventually “type” everything on my mind haha.  I feel safer typing things than saying them so i don’t get punched or hurt or deal with many of people’s reactions. behind the  buffer of computer it feels safer. Also, I may try to speak more of my mind and type it less maybe. Anyways, that’s why I wrote you those long messages because basically I was like OMG I’m freaking out!! I don’t know what’s going on in my life I don’t have income, career, gf, life, i don’t trust my bioparents they feel unsafe, abusive, and defeating, and I just needed to share what I was thinking/feeling with someone I trusted and I trust amellite (you) !! LOL true!! So honestly, mate, I think just me Sharing the msgs was what mattered most.  You always have best reactions MOST MASSIVELY helpful .  HEY!! you used my word “massive” when described the emails HAHA!! I’ve used so many of your words : “heaps” etc etc.  But yeah yeah, mate, seriously do not feel like you need to be a shrink or anything don’t feel like you need to do anything with them.  I was just panicky and was “like shit shit shit who do I trust I need to share this with someone i’ve been keeping it bottled up for too long” and your’e someone I trust so. hehe kk awesome man. phil/blankjo/verne haha! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— November 27, 2009 — 10:22 PM Strategies shape the direction and umbrella of tactics used. Tactics are “modular” meaning one tactic can be used in a variety of different strategies. For example in chess (the best example of astrategies and tactics in my opinion), the skewer and discovered attack “tactic” can both utilized in a “center-controlling offense” strategy or a “back-rank mate attack strategy”. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— November 27, 2009 — 10:53 PM Going all Vegan Subjects I LOVE Eating Vegan.  So much more digestive time for the foods I enjoy, savor, and that are healthiest. Best of all, nothing I eat feels heavy or burdensome. But I’m interested in taking that a step further with intellectual studies. So what subjects are definitely “vegan” — light, healthy, savory, and uplifting, and which subjects are definitely “not-vegan”. Definitely Not-Vegan Political Science Drama Acting Self-help books Religion (the epiblanktoe of eating dirt and animal fat). All those are obviously heavy, burdensome, take you know where, make you feel like shit, and are a total waste of time; the definitely non-vegan subjects are crippling and disgusting. Unfortunately Likely Not-Vegan Chess Computers Magic Fictional LIterature NLP Anti-Persuasion NLP is too non-scientific.  Soem fictional literature is amazing, but it’s not true.  Computers are light, but loopy, and unlike math which is direct, computers is really repackaged kind of more “political math”.  Magic is just illusions that are most fun debunked, besides physics offers some of the most amazing and TRUE astonishing feats possible.  Chess is a tough one because I like it so, but, alas, it seems to have too many parallels to political science unfortunately.  I hate political science.  Chess is a tough one to deal with because a part of me really likes it.  It’s cool to win games at chess, such an ancient game, one of the most ancient!  Chess might acceptable at times.  Anti-persuasion is just pre-emptive to avoid even worse non-vegan material. Definitely Vegan Math Classical Music Neuroscience Botany All those are UNQUESTIONABLY light, lucid, direct, forward-moving, easy to apply to life (equations you work out and can instantly check, all the neuroscience is relative to your own body, and classical music you apply on an instrument!).  They’re fulfilling and forward-moving! Maybe by eliminating the all Not-Vegan material, the three Definitely Vegan subjects will expand and I will discovery all kinds of hosts of exciting reads! Mingling less and less with the Unfortunately Not-Vega stuff will be liberating and make me feel safer in life because I’l be “feeding my mind” healthy, truly, safely material!! And then just as with veganism, once I’ve got an all vegan intellectual diet, I can just safetly eate as much as I want of the “vegan subjects”!! SWEET! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— November 27, 2009 — 11:55 PM GREAT hiking food dried bananas dried fruit almonds (of all kinds) oranges apples SOUP SOUP SOUP YUM!!! protein powder I came to the somewhat comforting (because at least I knew where a home is) and unsettling (because I wasn’t home) realization in November of 2009 that as I lay in the bed in the house that I lived in from 0 to 16, that I wasn’t at home.  428 Roslyn wasn’t a home.  Even more shocking, Illinois wasn’t my home state; and usa was a foreign country.  I instantly realized I am a foreigner in the usa.  Sure, my passport says usa citizen, but I knew I wasn’t american.  I don’t belong here;  I haven’t belonged here for almost a decade. Ever since I first went to europe, I knew I wasn’t american.  I identified and had too many connections with those other countries and so few ties with america to even remotely consider myself american.  I’m european, I’m australian.  Being in america might as well feel as foreign as being in China. I WORK BEST at night!!!!  I feel in control at night.  TRUE!!! Soemtimes.  well moreso than during day. cs bs g ss 5pt-KS bs g ss (optional: kick) EVISC 11/17/2009 there’s no fucking way that you’re going to DUMP me in some other apartment like you did the past 2 and a half years.  TWO and a HALF YEARS!!   you don’t want to live with me? well, why the fuck would I want to live you you bullying people? but I don’t have the option not to right now, do i?  Did you treat james like shit, too, constantly saying “we don’t want you living here”? and you know why else that’s so fucked up? is because you’re a rich person who has tons of houses and is so rich that you PAY for me to not be in them.  that’s extremely distorted.  When I get an “apartment” next it will be on some dorm campus or in conjunction with a job.   I’m not going to go sit in an apartment cell without a job as YOU made me do for 2.5 years. It’s really funny that you said keeping the old la apartment flyers is irrational because I had been keeping them as token reminders of how unpleasant that experience was and YOU made me endure that experience, just like you’ve slaughtered and mutilated and caused trauma for many years of my life. until I get my stuff together and figure out the next step (applying to school etc.) I can do things so that you can enjoy all your stupid million houses, but I think i’ve been trampled on enough.  some ideas are I could move back to the basement if that would be better/easier/quieter if you wanted. i’m always accommodating. it’s so disgusting that you keep telling me to get an apartment for SOOOO many reasons:

  1. it’s not like there’s a lack of space 5 people living in a one room area.
  2. you telling me to get an apartment is SOOO richly evidential that you don’t give a sHIT about me having a career nor life (that’s obvious on multiple dimensions now) but just want me away from you, out of your hair.
  3. in the past 2.5 years that you shoved me in a penitentirary, that seriously stalled my life.
  4. I have ZERO income.  I can’t afford an apartment.
  5. EVERY person I know who doesn’t have a job lives with their parents.  (multiple examples)
  6. many other reasons.

you know what the truth of the matter is?  When you realize that I’m not open to being bullied, when I’m not making myself vulnerable so you can humiliate, ridicule, and emotionally abuse and instigate me, you get bored and want me out .  so basically if I am not your prey, I can’t stay.  As far as I can see it that’ your mantra, and I’m not being some idiot who gets trampled on. And also, this is absolutely retarded because you suggest to “keep thigns” and in reality i’m keeping things and storing thigns much more efficiently and int detail it’s so obvious from subtle body language, to comments, to everything that you look at me as an enemy. BOTH you and mom.  that is so incredibly lucid and clear. we might just have to face up that after me trying to escape and hide from you and you trying to shove me in penitentiaries for 2.5 years that as uncomfortable as it may be, there might be a need to have to cope living in same vicinity until I get my life back that you stole. And additionally, you havE NO GRASP OF MY REALITY.  true.  Especially regarding furniture.  I don’t feel bad at all that I couldn’t sell a lot of that furniture.  do you know why? because i think your equation for “Dealing iwth me” is 1)get blankjo a box to live in 2)put furniture in box.  Guess what I hate most furniture, don’t use it, consider it absolutely retarded.  So that entire malibu canyon apartment experience was infested wtih crap that got dumped in it which I never wanted. i think this odd inclination stems from how many houses you’ve furnished, you like doing that or something, i don’t know. there’s a lot of junk rubbish that you forced on me (apartments and furniture come to mind) that I never wanted that just ended up being a waste of YOUR money. why you continued to do that I have no idea? would you feel safer never having to see blank and blank again? HELL YES. Do you feel lost? yes. angry? yes. do you like your stupid fuckwad belligerent, insidiious, orewellian mindcontrolling corrupt evil parents sending you crap suits of yoru fathers?? FUCK NO I hat ethat. this is a BAD house, corrupt, evil, dad, UNSAFE office it’s not a house.  blank and blank are strangers do you feel stuck with teh clothes? yes I ‘d like to eliminate some from this stuicase but somethign is stalling me. do you think having these clutter problems is related to you dickhead abusive, bullying parents?  unquestionably can you think of how they cause you to have clutter?  no but I know it’s intertwined. December 8, 2009 — 5:43 AM i mooch off them because they never provided love and just are brainwasher dickehads. how can you dissilve whatever it is that’s causing you to keep unnecessary clutter? pretend bioparents and blankjm and blankjion.  blank is a dimrod!! he’s an idiot!!   he wastes your time. He is an IDIOT!!   SERIOUSLY.  he’s like NOT very smart AT ALL hahhaha!!  NExt time he ewansts to try to steal money from you which he did this evening  DO NOT let him SERIOUSLY. STUNLOCK the bastard!! LOL. END MISC FROM GDOCS November 17, 2009 — 3:37 PM I missed the free character move FAIL!!!!!! FUCKING SHIT THAT sucks ass I soo wanted to fully relocate well I’d just move philleas now thtat I realize  will deliete othe rwow cahrs i’ve MISSED playing wow.  wow is was my life.  and I don’t have one in rl.  i have more of a life in wow. rl i not really all that fun. i am scared to go do things in rl TRUE.  TRUE AS. so if i get all the  clothing to 3 and 6 and everything cleaned out of 428 and everything cleaned out of aguora hills…and a new laptop and everything rubbish sold and no confusion on what keeping, discarding, and selling.. THEN WHAT?  then youd be in a better financial situation, feel healthier, and fuck this abysmal self-help crap. I learned the lesson. when somethign works PERFECTLY COINCIDENTALLY like the faction change lol like the realm transfer to THAURISSIAN DO IT.  ffs DO AIT!! Make that happen , KNOW what’s a definite finite non-infinite few weeks time window and make that happen!! That WILL happen in life in the future. SEA was like that. did the boat suck ace yes!! Did the shore rock?? YEs.  was it a definitel time window and you would’ve missed shore? YES. but I seized that.  I need to be on thauraisn DATH IS FAIL. henryhunter and SMART guys are on thaurissna ffs! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— tearcryjoy. watched wow orig opening cinematic. i am unquestionably unwaveringly Alliance.  biofam IS horde true. what else is alliance? astronaut is. physics is.  SWIMMING is alliance.  TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! Drinking is both.  sex is both.   wilderness is both. SWIMMING IS ALLIANe.    Miner is undead horde or troll. what else is alliance? astronaut is. physics is.  SWIMMING is alliance.  TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! Drinking is both.  sex is both.   wilderness is both. SWIMMING IS ALLIANe.    Miner is undead horde or troll. Why am I alliance and biofam is horde? blank is red, fat, abusive, he’s a tauren. blank is a that other thing the blood elf i think. blank might be alli blankjs is definitely HORDE a troll. blankjm is now hore, a blood elf. I AM unwaveringly alliance. how is that?  I am blue i like blue, i’m clear, I am gOOD.  GOOD.  I do swimming I am clean, horde is sloppy. alliacne is sblanktorwinc connected Why am I alliance and biofam is horde? blank is red, fat, abusive, he’s a tauren. blank is a that other thing the blood elf i think. blank might be alli blankjs is definitely HORDE a troll. blankjm is now hore, a blood elf. I AM unwaveringly alliance. how is that?  I am blue i like blue, i’m clear, I am gOOD.  GOOD.  I do swimming I am clean, horde is sloppy. alliacne is sblanktorwinc connected what else is alliance? astronaut is. physics is.  SWIMMING is alliance.  TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! Drinking is both.  sex is both.   wilderness is both. SWIMMING IS ALLIANe.    Miner is undead horde or troll. Why am I alliance and biofam is horde? blank is red, fat, abusive, he’s a tauren. blank is a that other thing the blood elf i think. blank might be alli blankjs is definitely HORDE a troll. blankjm is now hore, a blood elf. I AM unwaveringly alliance. how is that?  I am blue i like blue, i’m clear, I am gOOD.  GOOD.  I do swimming I am clean, horde is sloppy. alliacne is sblanktorwinc connected ————————————————————————————————— —————————————————————————————————November 17, 2009 — 6:08 PM the comptuer crashed again.    Ithink going to apple sturroe awiteoiui g ANother huge realization I’ve had to play prince of persian and video games to disconnect from hwo wretchedla painful bo fam has been but on teh upswing I have also made great friendships that I LOVE in video games MMOs I think I’ll get a 15.4 4gb 250gb+ HD computer yes.  mabye from apple store maybe ust look at apple then order refurbished yes!! dB is a fag and maybe HE IS ADRIIN!! Do I care? No. that’s fucking hot!! And good and db is great. i d on’t care.  I lik bug jugged massive titted voluptuou fucking HUGE TITTED WOMEN oh yes.  but considering that adriin likes dudes that’s wierdl y refereshign hehe. I love FUCKING HUGE JUGGS YEAAY AND HOT fucking hot pronlike nerd woman yes sorto fo like erika alvarez sort of.  nerdiness is awesome and huge juggies!!!!!! YIPPEE.  and th fact that adriin likes guys is Rockin awesome!! because no competition haha and refershign and I LIKE that about adriin. TRUE!! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— November 17, 2009 — 7:47 PM the comptuer crashed again.    Ithink going to apple sturroe awiteoiui g realized I need to just had BIG WKF thoguth about DONITA dunes. sounds like daneka!! but I MUST get 15.4 1699 refurbished HUGE pgradwith cPU 2.66-1.16=0.50 ram 4gb-2bg=2gb HD  320-200= 120gb upgrade HUGE graphics card upgrade tHAt’s MASSIVE that’s well worth it that’s solid and then can sell IMAC FTW SELL that piece of shit desktop fFS!! well I like it but should sell it SELL IT YES!! `ell From Archive_toxic few months wig biological bros ( I think hose visions have faded though yea) and u only do these random pity calls or somehing. + don’t know u + ur smart + u know about some of my life. all equals roughly frightenig! Yeah quite logical really Visit nippy there’s advice. I did that and my godparents many times. Totally random Okay, I understand why that would be frightening. A part of me really misses days when we all three played metw. Ya Me too. That is an awesome game and it was really fun playing with you and Thomas. I’ve done MANY very stupid, digressive, unaligned things and been excited about them at first (cough* acting crock of shit etc comedy pathetic etc) ya middle earth ccg was awesome. I loved that. Fun. Prob opening the cards as much as playing game. Can’t believe all your basketball cards lol. That was fun it was fun go see each of us open packs u Thomas and I etc ya good stuff. Atv was fun. Traps. I liked mi times more than Sb times in 90s I think. U? Yeah, love MI. Its so beautiful amd has a nice priximity to chicag. I like middle earth and watching movies again that we’ve already seen, like jungle2jungle. I don’t remember jungle to jungle but I don’t watch Hollywood films anymore I loved responding, liked my response, and love sharing this biological awesomeness. Water striders are some of the coolest organisms imho. This is such a cool biological adaption.  They utilize COHESION TENSION.  this is so frickin cool I love this stuff. Fill up a glass of water to the brim.  Notice that the top of the water (the meniscus) is actually above the rim of the glass (this works best if you slowly add water and will not work as well if you gush water in).  It’s almost like there’s a “skin” on the water.  This is cohesion tension. The negatively charged oxygen ablankto forms a weak hydrogen bond with the positively charged hydrogen ablanktos of the H20 molecule. Cohesion tension froms the “skin” of water, but more importantly (and a seperate and more botanical discussion) is that it is what makes transpirationa-pull of water through plants, possible. So you the water strider simply adroitly and delicately avoids breaking the cohesion tension on the water.  It does not have some super-hero water-walking ability, and thus, there’s nothing we coudl “inject” ourselves with.  Our best bet would just find a way to avoid breaking the very weak (but strong enough for plants to utilize it for transpirational pull) cohesion tension force. Water striders are extremely lightweight and don’t break the cohesion tension on the water surface. Turtles lifespan “. A typical pet turtle can lives 10-80 years or so while larger species can easily live over 100 years. The oldest recorded age of a turtle was 250 years in India.”   (http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_life_span_of_a_turtle) This article is excellent http://www.slate.com/id/2138560/ Basically it says that animals and their lifespans revolve around how quickly they can reproduce. Animals have adaptations to help their genes get passed on such as: reproducing quickly (these animals usually have shorter lifespans) having poisons (protection) being larger having armor (like the turtle) sea turtles are large and have armor, thus, both those contribute to their longevity. TAIL Basically, tails serve different purposes for different animals. Deers use tails (the underside) to signal and flash it’s friends to warn of danger. Fish use their tells form locomotive movement through the water. Monkeys and opposums use their tails for grappling branches. Cats and kangaroos (sort of similar to the monkey function of the tail) use their tail for balance. Scorpion tails inject venom as a protection. Dog tails show mood. So you see, the tail is quite and amazing thing and depending on the animal, the tail could inject venom signal friends show mood, maintain balance grab branches propel through water. WOW talk about versatile appendage!!! Awesome! From  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tail DNA — Deoxyribonucleic acid is the “blueprint” for our cells and cells make up body parts (including tells) including the lightweight ability of water-striders. I could tell you weren’t trolling.  Your question is interesting.  Seems like you’re interested in getting a tail and walking on water??? haha!  Basically, without genetic mutation, we would need to slowly adapt through natural selection to need those things.  But we don’t have a use for tails anymore and we used to have them!  Our ancestors (thus, or geneological dna) used to be swinging from the treetops with our prehensile (tree-branch-grabbing) tails about 65 million years ago. Also, we don’t have a need to float on the cohesion tension of water?  Why?  Humans can build boats!! xD. With advances in genetic copying i’m sure some geneticists could isolated the genes/alleles for extracting the “tail” dna “code” or the water strider’s code for being lightweight and not breaking the cohesion tension, but “injecting” that in and just expecting a tail to pop up wouldn’t be practical.  Also, you ahve to understand that the water-strider ability is based on it’s lightweight and it’s distribution of weight over the surface of the water (and not some special ability to turn water into a solid while standing on it or something). Cheers! moving to australia creat pressure know that america is a fail so pathetically dismal fail place.  it’s a waste of life and time. create pressure and think dang if other people find out how awesome australia is, they might go there.  You want to go to australia MORE.  it’s a fantastic place.  You want to live in australia (in brisbane). you DO NOT want to “visit” or do “tourism” in australia. TRUE. TRUE!! i didn’t like martial arts!! TRUE. it was just lame stuff that people shoved onto me and I don’t like it one bit all routinized crap.  I like biological science because that’s the way things works!! Math is sort of martial arts like! I’ll take math over martial arts any day of the year, but it’s still routinezed things. `el————————————————————————————————— —————————————————————————————————December 14, 2009 — 12:30 PM thDecember 14, 2009 — 12:30 PM ta sfuckin awesome! Does risperdal work instantly? Do any of the sympblanktos of disorganized schizophrenia get better instantly? If not how long does it take? (for my schizophrenic brother) blankjo K Your Answer: No it doesn’t. Because your borther doesn’t have schizophrenia. Schizophrenia doens’t exist. Your brother has a set and sequence of behaviors that other people consider problematic. Put your brother in the right place and the right kind of people and he’ll thrive. 50 years from now pharmaceutical companies will have other malign, corrupt, methods of fallaciously leaking money out form people and condemning people who are simply slightly different (but most of the times more brilliant) than normal people because psychiatry won’t be around then. The world is slowly waking up to this reality. There you go. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-psychi… Source(s): incorrectly diagnosed with over 6 different misdiagnosed nonexistent disorders. psychology studies. genius. xD. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————–http://www.validateyourlife.com————————- December 14, 2009 — 2:36 PM I FEEL SAFE around  computer people.  I like and love computer people! finally ay! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 15, 2009 — 7:37 AM December 15, 2009 — 7:37 AM December 15, 2009 — 7:37 AM December 15, 2009 — 7:37 AM Physics with Notes. I am supposed to be studying this.  This is picking up where I left off at LP.  MATH class. YES EXCELLENT /slapface. /wakeup  you’re supposed to be studying JMATH and physics FFS! I LOVE old collared shirts that are tried and true that i’v eworn a lot (like the gridded blue shirt). Asian chicks are REALLY hot and cute and their food is goo. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 15, 2009 — 7:46 AM realized my dad isn’t so smart with numbers. the loan payoff thing he did was really rudimentary and childish. (but hey i’m getting out of debt SWEETftw and SAVING!! tons.) ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 15, 2009 — 9:13 AM Dawkins is really a voice of clarity who thinks like me.  I think like him.  of clarity.  which is marvelous.  GREAT!  but it’s comforting hearing him point out people that are just idiotic!! God is verb is semantic blanktofoolery and disguised atheism. TRUE!    God is love blah blah is atheist trying not to be atheist huh! all this stuff I worried about — the journaling, the recording of ical stuff, all these tiritval worry things i don’t care about anymore. feel so groos ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 16, 2009 — 4:43 PM while yes americans are revoltingly bureaucratic, paranoid and increasingly orwellian, you also have to question the temperment of someone who actually studies mortuary science. xD. LOL. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— saw amellite’s gear.  So pissed at how HARD it was for me to get good ranged weeps and how easy it is for other people to get them.  feel like failure MGOOD thing.  emails may be iliac quests, you can abandon tons if you want!!! XD TRUE that’s so true. `el December 17, 2009 — 9:51 AM woke up kept thinking about elizabeth murzyn huh i wrote different skin pigment skeleton loll.  and defended HAHA GOOD!! FFS Good she was awful person truly so fail no friends BLEH hell.  ZERO physical attraction I don’t like how I’ve oncstnatly had her bitchface on my mind maybe some similarity in dealing with people like crap life id i d dons’ care cabf over. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 17, 2009 — 3:12 PM Chocolate Coconut Kasi THE BEST Chocolate Coconut Kasi THE BEST After getting all my shit together.  I realized something.  physics, math, science, bio, GREAT all great.  YES.. BUt…I want to earn money.  I REALLY wnt to earn money.  I WANT to earn money (and save like 80% of it MOST DEFINITELY yES ). I don’t want to spend on anything.  that’s just a goal that I want to do.  I wanted to run a marathon.  I did that.  I want to earn money.  How much?  why not a million?  loll save 800,000 HAHA awesome. seminars don’t earn money and I don’t want to earn that way. ihpone would bE SICK way to earn some. but let’s start with earning $5,000 in savings ay!!!! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— aussies are nice, cookoo, good. americans are unsafe, dangerous, hicks. brits are intelligent, shrewd, cynical, but good. french are cool ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— Ross is an enemy.  Ross jeffries = ENEMY.  he cut out my one good clip at the seminar where eI was doing something.  Ross Jeffries is toxic. Enemy. KIM (vizzini kim )sounds like rita zcarnowski jee. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 15, 2009 — 7:05 PM lincoln park highschool was a better institution than latin. TRUE. LPHS brainwashed less. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— realizDecember 16, 2009 — 9:18 AM realized beth tried to make me thing I just knew words instead of what I want to know, bio.  She’s very unsafe and FAIL.  blank and beth and ask have either distracted, ridiculed, or stymied temporarily my bio science learning; they’re repulsive.  That ended.  I am focused on bio.  I focus on bio.  I learn bio.  DO NOT tell them what you’re focusing on.  They will discombobulate it. The only way to accomplish something is to not tell people you’re doing it. TRUE! (marathon, etc) . you can spend and waste your most valuable commodity (time) hating the people that have wronged you, or you can disengage that and put your time to loving what you like (bio, science, and aussies). stop waiting.  study what you want. Focus on it. Topics want to better understand residual air in LUNGS yes! how sternocleidomastoid effects inspiration (inhalation)! After getting all my shit together.  I realized something.  physics, math, science, bio, GREAT all great.  YES.. BUt…I want to earn money.  I REALLY wnt to earn money.  I WANT to earn money (and save like 80% of it MOST DEFINITELY yES ). I don’t want to spend on anything.  that’s just a goal that I want to do.  I wanted to run a marathon.  I did that.  I want to earn money.  How much?  why not a million?  loll save 800,000 HAHA awesome. seminars don’t earn money and I don’t want to earn that way. ihpone would bE SICK way to earn some. but let’s start with earning $5,000 in savings ay!!!! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— aussies are nice, cookoo, good. americans are unsafe, dangerous, hicks. brits are intelligent, shrewd, cynical, but good. french are cool ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— Ross is an enemy.  Ross jeffries = ENEMY.  he cut out my one good clip at the seminar where eI was doing something.  Ross Jeffries is toxic. Enemy. KIM (vizzini kim )sounds like rita zcarnowski jee. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 15, 2009 — 7:05 PM lincoln park highschool was a better institution than latin. TRUE. LPHS brainwashed less. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— realizDecember 16, 2009 — 9:18 AM realized beth tried to make me thing I just knew words instead of what I want to know, bio.  She’s very unsafe and FAIL.  blank and beth and ask have either distracted, ridiculed, or stymied temporarily my bio science learning; they’re repulsive.  That ended.  I am focused on bio.  I focus on bio.  I learn bio.  DO NOT tell them what you’re focusing on.  They will discombobulate it. The only way to accomplish something is to not tell people you’re doing it. TRUE! (marathon, etc) . you can spend and waste your most valuable commodity (time) hating the people that have wronged you, or you can disengage that and put your time to loving what you like (bio, science, and aussies). stop waiting.  study what you want. Focus on it. Topics want to better understand residual air in LUNGS yes! how sternocleidomastoid effects inspiration (inhalation)! california is BAD times enemies out here. popoff etc. bad people bad times .gross. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 19, 2009 — 11:30 AM December 19, 2009 — 11:30 AM I recollect a truly surreallish experience.  I think I had just done the Museum of natural history/ sherlock holmes and was on london tube and VIDEOGAMES is what’s been on pause in my life. TRUE!! FFS TRUE! I’ve been such an advocate for wow. talking about how awesome wow is for a reason!! I invested in sierra online stock.  I’ve wanted to make video games for LONNNGGGGGG time.  Love iphone stuff awesome! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— maybe BIO is simply more important than computer games?? lc learning bio Just saw fry totally hit on the guy LOL. I don’t mind gay people at all. It’s just like would that be the type of people i’d like to be with?? not particularly.  Just like I wouldn’t want to be with a bunch of business corporate people. true.  i’d rather be with gay people than them but the point of the matter is that it’s just not my kind of group really. What is then? HIGHLY precise people that are slick and clear like musicians.   Dexter holland precision’ airplane concert flying THAT is quality. everyone’s always trying to convince you that THEIR way of life is better.  Be it wealth, homosexuality, poverty, living in a tree fort, living underground, whatever it is. bleh. My ideal lilife that Ilike is precise, musical precision aviation. computers TONS, good clear people awesome times. What does irritate me is you compliment a man and they’ll likely feel embarrassed or atlas experience the compliment.  Women….WTF do they want? IDK you compliment them they brush it off like it was some kind of ridicule bleh.  hopeless. would be cool to be able to directly compliment be nice to women but hey they don’t process it or w/e.maybe they just want sex id. dreamdream weird dream dreamt took some kind of ferry to some place and needed to get back. but first was in some crap apartment where people could look in and say “hey blankjo” i think kyle  did that.  it felt like calabasas, then I took the ferry to some place and it felt like some aus island.  some asian clerk said his discount card for working as a waiter gave him $5 fare one way i said /i did the math and that’s $50/week, $200/ month on fare was that less than car costs? ay prob.  then met huge guy (not fat just tall and big) who was like heath ledger and he put his arm around two women and there may have been a third in his party.  made me feel jealous because I can never act that way around women. OKAY brain dump feel nervous about going to aus, where to go? Ni? aus? Mexiko? probably not ny loll. wowmen homes trying to make me homo the ebay ball sorting my old athletic belonging crap things logoed shirts blanks 2 suits.  blue and pinstripe bleh idk should probe put them with the saved crap one. household belongings are fine, kitchen belongings are fine. fear of going to the grocery store fear of going back to chicago fear of brainwashed by biofam mores fear of crap things that mess me up like rlt when at the time before rlt I was actually in a good state, good place. fear of doing stupid things like going back to latin (i won’t go back to there but ay w/e) fear of californians messing up. fear that TB may hurt more than help fear that I won’t have friends anxiety and discombobulation with wow and wanting to raid but discombobulation around people. anxiety and stress physiological related problems fear of not having a careeer wanting to make iphone apps but not wanting to mpay $99 should design them first REALLY fearful and nervous about what to do for xmas and new years.  Would for once like it to be goo 2008 — FAIL home alone calabasas 2007 — fail alone in chicago apartment 2006 – fail alone in chicago 428 hell 2005 — fail alone in chiacgog a428 hell 2004 — sb fail 2003 — GREAT!!!!!! on the east coast woods hole. fun snowball on roof GREAT FUN! 2002 — chicago fail. that’s not right man, you should have good xmas and new years every year atleast good new years. nervous about clutter. nervous about where to go. REALLy nervous about chicago Hey guys, I’m going to the storage sheltier again blanktoorrow hopefully for the last time.  Brought some cleaning supplies and a broom because they have to check it after I clean it.  There’s a few boxes that I’ll discard too (but fortunately they’ll fit in the small car).  Then if all goes well, I’ll end the storage rental and fully close it up.   I told one guy there that I’d almost certainly be moving everything out of the storage this month, so should be okay. I went there adjust contacted them at the office and they said that I had to give them a written 14 days notice or else I’d have to pay for the next month.  Since it’s the 20th, they said that I “technically” couldn’t move out until the 4th of December.  They said they need to know 14 days in advanced to rent out the storage to someone else and that they wouldn’t be able to do that for december, so basically even though I sweeped it and left it spic and span and empty on the 20th of december, they’re still making me pay for january??!! What the hell is with these people??  They aren’t as bad as malice canyon apartments, but man!! Can you think of anything to avoid the January cost?  So frustrating. Good news is the storage shelter is closed.  There’s still so much sorting though.I recollect a truly surreallish experience.  I think I had just done the Museum of natural history/ sherlock holmes and was on london tube and VIDEOGAMES is what’s been on pause in my life. TRUE!! FFS TRUE! I’ve been such an advocate for wow. talking about how awesome wow is for a reason!! I invested in sierra online stock.  I’ve wanted to make video games for LONNNGGGGGG time.  Love iphone stuff awesome! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— maybe BIO is simply more important than computer games?? lc learning bio Just saw fry totally hit on the guy LOL. I don’t mind gay people at all. It’s just like would that be the type of people i’d like to be with?? not particularly.  Just like I wouldn’t want to be with a bunch of business corporate people. true.  i’d rather be with gay people than them but the point of the matter is that it’s just not my kind of group really. What is then? HIGHLY precise people that are slick and clear like musicians.   Dexter holland precision’ airplane concert flying THAT is quality. everyone’s always trying to convince you that THEIR way of life is better.  Be it wealth, homosexuality, poverty, living in a tree fort, living underground, whatever it is. bleh. My ideal lilife that Ilike is precise, musical precision aviation. computers TONS, good clear people awesome times. What does irritate me is you compliment a man and they’ll likely feel embarrassed or atlas experience the compliment.  Women….WTF do they want? IDK you compliment them they brush it off like it was some kind of ridicule bleh.  hopeless. would be cool to be able to directly compliment be nice to women but hey they don’t process it or w/e.maybe they just want sex id. dreamdream weird dream dreamt took some kind of ferry to some place and needed to get back. but first was in some crap apartment where people could look in and say “hey blankjo” i think kyle  did that.  it felt like calabasas, then I took the ferry to some place and it felt like some aus island.  some asian clerk said his discount card for working as a waiter gave him $5 fare one way i said /i did the math and that’s $50/week, $200/ month on fare was that less than car costs? ay prob.  then met huge guy (not fat just tall and big) who was like heath ledger and he put his arm around two women and there may have been a third in his party.  made me feel jealous because I can never act that way around women. OKAY brain dump feel nervous about going to aus, where to go? Ni? aus? Mexiko? probably not ny loll. wowmen homes trying to make me homo the ebay ball sorting my old athletic belonging crap things logoed shirts blanks 2 suits.  blue and pinstripe bleh idk should probe put them with the saved crap one. household belongings are fine, kitchen belongings are fine. fear of getting fat fear of not being able to workout! fear of going to the grocery store fear of going back to chicago fear of brainwashed by biofam mores fear of crap things that mess me up like rlt when at the time before rlt I was actually in a good state, good place. fear of doing stupid things like going back to latin (i won’t go back to there but ay w/e) fear of californians messing up. fear that TB may hurt more than help fear that I won’t have friends anxiety and discombobulation with wow and wanting to raid but discombobulation around people. anxiety and stress physiological related problems fear of not having a careeer wanting to make iphone apps but not wanting to mpay $99 should design them first REALLY fearful and nervous about what to do for xmas and new years.  Would for once like it to be goo 2008 — FAIL home alone calabasas 2007 — fail alone in chicago apartment 2006 – fail alone in chicago 428 hell 2005 — fail alone in chiacgog a428 hell 2004 — sb fail 2003 — GREAT!!!!!! on the east coast woods hole. fun snowball on roof GREAT FUN! 2002 — chicago fail. that’s not right man, you should have good xmas and new years every year atleast good new years. nervous about clutter. nervous about where to go. REALLy nervous about chicago scared of bioparents scared of parents scared of vows people kind of scared of starving scared that my back is messed up REALLY scared about money etc. damn i probe shouldn’t have those yearly expenses. scared about that.  would like to backup the home videos bollocks. Hey guys, I’m going to the storage sheltier again blanktoorrow hopefully for the last time.  Brought some cleaning supplies and a broom because they have to check it after I clean it.  There’s a few boxes that I’ll discard too (but fortunately they’ll fit in the small car).  Then if all goes well, I’ll end the storage rental and fully close it up.   I told one guy there that I’d almost certainly be moving everything out of the storage this month, so should be okay. I went there adjust contacted them at the office and they said that I had to give them a written 14 days notice or else I’d have to pay for the next month.  Since it’s the 20th, they said that I “technically” couldn’t move out until the 4th of December.  They said they need to know 14 days in advanced to rent out the storage to someone else and that they wouldn’t be able to do that for december, so basically even though I sweeped it and left it spic and span and empty on the 20th of december, they’re still making me pay for january??!! What the hell is with these people??  They aren’t as bad as malice canyon apartments, but man!! Can you think of anything to avoid the January cost?  So frustrating. Good news is the storage shelter is closed.  There’s still so much sorting though. feel really scared about what to do wit hteh books etc. I recollect a truly surreallish experience.  I think I had just done the Museum of natural history/ sherlock holmes and was on london tube and VIDEOGAMES is what’s been on pause in my life. TRUE!! FFS TRUE! I’ve been such an advocate for wow. talking about how awesome wow is for a reason!! I invested in sierra online stock.  I’ve wanted to make video games for LONNNGGGGGG time.  Love iphone stuff awesome! ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— maybe BIO is simply more important than computer games?? lc learning bio Just saw fry totally hit on the guy LOL. I don’t mind gay people at all. It’s just like would that be the type of people i’d like to be with?? not particularly.  Just like I wouldn’t want to be with a bunch of business corporate people. true.  i’d rather be with gay people than them but the point of the matter is that it’s just not my kind of group really. What is then? HIGHLY precise people that are slick and clear like musicians.   Dexter holland precision’ airplane concert flying THAT is quality. everyone’s always trying to convince you that THEIR way of life is better.  Be it wealth, homosexuality, poverty, living in a tree fort, living underground, whatever it is. bleh. My ideal lilife that Ilike is precise, musical precision aviation. computers TONS, good clear people awesome times. What does irritate me is you compliment a man and they’ll likely feel embarrassed or atlas experience the compliment.  Women….WTF do they want? IDK you compliment them they brush it off like it was some kind of ridicule bleh.  hopeless. would be cool to be able to directly compliment be nice to women but hey they don’t process it or w/e.maybe they just want sex id. dreamdream weird dream dreamt took some kind of ferry to some place and needed to get back. but first was in some crap apartment where people could look in and say “hey blankjo” i think kyle  did that.  it felt like calabasas, then I took the ferry to some place and it felt like some aus island.  some asian clerk said his discount card for working as a waiter gave him $5 fare one way i said /i did the math and that’s $50/week, $200/ month on fare was that less than car costs? ay prob.  then met huge guy (not fat just tall and big) who was like heath ledger and he put his arm around two women and there may have been a third in his party.  made me feel jealous because I can never act that way around women. OKAY brain dump feel nervous about going to aus, where to go? Ni? aus? Mexiko? probably not ny loll. wowmen homes trying to make me homo the ebay ball sorting my old athletic belonging crap things logoed shirts blanks 2 suits.  blue and pinstripe bleh idk should probe put them with the saved crap one. household belongings are fine, kitchen belongings are fine. fear of going to the grocery store fear of going back to chicago fear of brainwashed by biofam mores fear of crap things that mess me up like rlt when at the time before rlt I was actually in a good state, good place. fear of doing stupid things like going back to latin (i won’t go back to there but ay w/e) fear of californians messing up. fear that TB may hurt more than help fear that I won’t have friends anxiety and discombobulation with wow and wanting to raid but discombobulation around people. anxiety and stress physiological related problems fear of not having a careeer wanting to make iphone apps but not wanting to mpay $99 should design them first REALLY fearful and nervous about what to do for xmas and new years.  Would for once like it to be goo 2008 — FAIL home alone calabasas 2007 — fail alone in chicago apartment 2006 – fail alone in chicago 428 hell 2005 — fail alone in chiacgog a428 hell 2004 — sb fail 2003 — GREAT!!!!!! on the east coast woods hole. fun snowball on roof GREAT FUN! 2002 — chicago fail. that’s not right man, you should have good xmas and new years every year atleast good new years. nervous about clutter. nervous about where to go. REALLy nervous about chicago Hey guys, I’m going to the storage sheltier again blanktoorrow hopefully for the last time.  Brought some cleaning supplies and a broom because they have to check it after I clean it.  There’s a few boxes that I’ll discard too (but fortunately they’ll fit in the small car).  Then if all goes well, I’ll end the storage rental and fully close it up.   I told one guy there that I’d almost certainly be moving everything out of the storage this month, so should be okay. I went there adjust contacted them at the office and they said that I had to give them a written 14 days notice or else I’d have to pay for the next month.  Since it’s the 20th, they said that I “technically” couldn’t move out until the 4th of January.  They said they need to know 14 days in advanced to rent out the storage to someone else and that they wouldn’t be able to do that for december, so basically even though I sweeped it and left it spic and span and empty on the 20th of december, they’re still making me pay for january??!! What the hell is with these people??  They aren’t as bad as malice canyon apartments, but man!!  So frustrating.  Their logic was that since I gave them “written formal” notice today, they wouldn’t be able to rent out storage unit for January, so I had to pay for the january month.  But I told them Im not even using it january nor the last week of december!  So, that’s really frustrating. Good news is the storage shelter is closed, though.  There’s still so much sorting though.  How am I going to send this stuff???  Where do I get sturdy boxes? ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— just realized Hey TB! I just had this good idea (with zero/small expectations): wanted to inquire if WowRadio was looking for any other/more podcasters?!! My speciality ingame is primarily pvp.  I know there’s a lot of raid (unquestionably your specialty) and instance content emphasis, but I don’t hear much talk about pvp.  That’s definitely my area of expertise, from battleground strategies, to knowing and exploiting weaknesses of other classes to maximize the abilities of your class and more. I’ve got a lot of podcasting experience Link…. I love wow and have done a fair bit of programming and computer sciencey stuff.  CV is attached. Awesome segments.  As I believe I said in some other message before: TRUe intelligent.   FRIENDs where i am not appeasing them just like their company/fellowship!! Slanik and TB are soo awesome. Friends!! intelligent, awesome, quality, light. Fellow gamer nerds!! Brilliant. cool as. good people. Mainly, they speak their mind!! That’s goal and quality . and I like listenign to what they say and how they say things! They have some of the strongest voices have ever heard in my life. TRUE!  plus their pro-video game message is AWESOME.  TB IS LIKE ME!! he looks uncomfortable dealing with real life things in body (heated etc) but his VOICE is massively CLEAR. This guy — tb — is so frickin clear and awesome and not lame.  no fame agenda, just voice and what he talks about is interesitn as! Hearing TB and slanik was prob the equivalent to a kid first hearing beatie boys or the rolling stones or rock (or hell, classical, because clasical is awesome too) for the first time! i love gaming.  I HATE nlp. I just love gaming and people like TB who’s life is about gaming and making sure people know that gaming makes friendships, is fun, involves math, is good etc, validate my interest in gaming! **** Finally, in one podcast you said that all staff of wowradio are like some of the weirdest “something wrong with them people” (Facetiously of course)…well that’s me! — blankjo ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— ddt December 21, 2009 — 11:25 AM VERY scared about going back to chicago. bioparents want to talk me a bout my “future plans”. I’m discovering some things that are actually “my thing” like parkour, wow, aus.  And I don’t want to and will not share those with my parents. they discombobulate and hinder and injure and stymie everything I’ve talked to them about.  So I’ve learned you don’t talk to people about things you want to do. So i’ll just make up something and say randomly “psychology”.  which isn’t what I want to do at all. I don’t think I should go back to chicago.  those people aren’t my parents.  I’m scared of those people.  I don’t know them.  I don’t trust them.  I don’t like them.  All they’ve done is destroy my life. So but  basically I spend so much of my time running/hiding from my parents.  I do not want to talk with them about my future plans.  I’ve done that dozens of times and what always happens is : 1)they ridicule my plans 2)the plans become distracted and discombobulated 3)the plans never happen. I do not trust them and am indeed very scared of them.  They always demand that I tell them what my “plans are”.  And they always try to bully what I’m thinking out of me. When I found something that I actually like (like aus, for example), I never share that.  I always keep that private. I feel so abused by them.  I did indeed say that I felt like they emotionally raped me this one time. So what the hell should I do?  Should I fly  back to chicago, go through a hellish christmas, and hellish new years (5 out of the past 6 new years have been crappy and in chicago,  the only good one was during sea semester, which rocked).  And deal with them poking and prodding me about plans.  Why the fuck don’t they mind their own business? Or I guess another idea is convincing them to let me stay out here longer, but that would probably be fail, too. I also could by a ticket randomly and go to aus or some place but that would cost a lot and it wouldn’t be planned so I don’t think that would work well.  I bought the aus ticket over a month in advance and it was GREAT.  I got the europe ticket the same day and it was really hard to find places to stay and it wasn’t as good of a trip.  in other words, seems like There’s this psychologist that I had to see after this sea semester program before going back to old college (That I hated) and was thinking about seeing him. I hated the college I attended.  That was three years of my life.  I think i’ve done enough things that I don’t want to do, for long enough, really. I keep thinking of new york as possible place. but it could be another trap/fail.  Aus is good.  I need career to work with good people and I can’t keep wasting my life around these wanker parents. SERIOUSLY! SRSLY! So what about applying to grad school? fuck that! I experience pain of grades and teacher pressure again when I want to be teaching the class so I can still be stuck in the usa 3 years later?? FUCK THAT! I finally understood what that nicole chick and the laura landlord woman were saying like pods of friends: biker friends, country club friends, huge diversity, but WITHIN aus!!!!!!!! it’s a different world. called art shit  (instigation, blatant bullying, insulting) said don’t’ have that attitude with me.  provocation, bullying (JUST like alex ekman tripping) said can’t go to sleep ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 24, 2009 — 8:15 PM Derren brown is so awesome and cool because he does this great entertainment and magic (like normal magicians) but then he also reminds people that if they get or feel stuck or trapped it’s always just their belief(s) and they can question those beliefs. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 24, 2009 — 8:46 PM one thing I realized is a LOT of women (not all, but a LOT, especially american women) LIKE to try to arouse men to lead them on,waste their time, feel like they have the illusion of control, even though they don’t!!  good women are just natural and fun and likable and encourage and don’t try to lead on. true. good. ————————————————————————————————— ————————————————————————————————— December 24, 2009 — 11:00 PM December 24, 2009 — 11:00 PM I realized when I reveal private personal things that’s the best precursor to sharing information b/c when someone identifies with you, they can absorb and pickup the information much easier.